I had a panic attack today, I had someone embarass me very badly in a very public way, and I had a parent-teacher conference that did not go well. I am paranoid, I feel strung out, I dont think I'm a very good mother right now. I'm somewhat ashamed at myself that I am feeling so very sorry for myself. I want to crawl in my bed with the lights out and hide there for weeks, and I'm disgusted that I'm that pathetic.
and yet...
I have these beautiful kids who show in the most unexpected ways how much they love me, and how well they've been raised.
and I got the most gorgeous hair color today, covering up all the silvery stress in my head, done by my amazing, strong, beautiful, genius friend, and she refused to let me pay for it.
tomorrow...I'm going to bust down doors, blind them all with the power of my coppery tresses, cock a sardonic eyebrow at the world and dare anybody to cross me.
I am loved, so I win.
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